I called it “comfort zone”

it has been 2, almost 3 months in 2009..wow unbelievable, rite? and without realizing, it will be soon coming to May and June.
Life without any visions and directions =( sometimes when I think about it, I will question my self, what do I need to struggle for? I have a good work, nice career path, good friend, homey office environment….
and I think my life is just flowing like a water…upside down.yeaah, right, I am now in my very comfort zone.
Yuckz..I just realized it this morning,
Yesterday, a friend of mine offered me a new job. It is kinda great job with good salary, but it is for contract position within 1-2 year. Usually, I would think that it is a new challenge for me to more explore my skill and abilities, but now, I felt that I even didn’t have any interest to take a look that vacancy…wew…..
There may be nothing wrong with me or that vacancy, but I think I know what the problem is. I’m now in my comfort zone. wew….I need to take time to think as much as possible new things that I can earn this year.
Dear God,
Pls enlighten my thought to find out Your will in my way, in my life ^_^

I need to make new visions and focus to my result

know ur products

I think I should learn something today. I started my overtime in the office because of my principal’s foolishness, which is they say that we (our team) have to do some upgrades before they start to deploy the new application.

It was sounded one week earlier and we were still unsure about this upgrade things, buuuuuttt as we know that they are consultant, so we try to do what they may say.

we prepare the upgrade things, which is very sudden (just like sudden death, rite?) and then it’s just happen. The SQL database is got some errors in the duplicated key and we thought that it wouldn’t effect to the application since in the guidance, the product stated that the upgrade will affect nothing to the application, but the fact is that today, our client cannot run the application, cannot approve the workflow. Lately, in the afternoon my boss said that we just had some news from the principal that, there is no need for upgrading……haha??? r u kidding???????? you should state it one week earlier man!!! and not this afternoon, when all the things are messed up.

do not always trust to anyone, I learn that I must get more understanding to the product knowledge and I think I need to learn more about this product before making suggestion to my customer. sometimes principal always want us to use and buy their product without paying some attention to customer’s requirements, which is if there is a new patch, they will always advise us to install and upgrade the latest version, without any attentions to overview first the customer need. Just as happened today, actually my principal only fixes the application without upgrading the whole application version. ta dhaaaaa…..isn’t it a lil bit funny and “suck”??? huh?? ^^

after 2008…..what’s next??

Never thought that this year will end soon. We are now in the very last month of the year, December…Christmas everywhere..yeah

All I can say is that this year is a kind of merciful year for me. you know why? so let me tell you something. In the beginning of this year, I wrote my 5 visions and I thought it would be a rather impossible for any of them.

The first one is that I wanted to get A for my final thesis project, but unfortunately, I didn’t know why, all the spirit I had was getting weaker before the trial day. I tried to pray God, but I felt really unsure, then when I tried to learn to hear what He wanted me to in my trial, God only said “Just enjoy your trial”. ouw….ok I would do that and so I said ” I would give all my graduation to You since You had given me wisdom to do such a thesis project” and waw….it was really amazing, I really got the A for my thesis and my thesis was also implemented in the company in which I did my research…really really thanks God, it was more than I thought

The second one is that when my boss challenged to promote my career, but there was a requirement I needed to fulfill first. I had to get the Microsoft Certified. Waw….. I only thought someone like me? got a Microsoft Certified? Is it a dream? since it was a pretty hard exam but i didn’t know why I dealt with this requirement buuuuut…. I said “I would take it in the very last month of this year, perhaps on September” since I knew that my performance review would be done in October. Accidentally, in June I had a training, which gave me a free exam voucher and it was valid only till July, which meant that I had to take the exam between June or July (which meant, 3 months earlier….taadaaaaaaa)., but ok, ok, just trying and if i was failed, my company would still pay my ‘real’ exam in September as stated before. So, I was trying to find the materials and also learned from my colleagues….and still praying…God pls help me, I gave all my exam destiny…and tadaaaaa on the exam day, I was passed with a high grade wow….(964 from 1000) what a mercy

The third and the fourth which was salary and career upgrading came to me exactly…From Junior Consultant, I was promoted to be Associate Consultant…yippiiiieeeeeeeeeee and it was not over there was still the fifth or the last one which is a rather impossible I think, but who knows, God is very good and merciful for me

and The last one was just happened a few days ago, which I finally found a very special person in my life ^_^ something that i had never been sure before….hehehehe yeaah since untill August, I have never been closed to someone.

What I learned here is that, in the beginning of every year, I always write my visions for this certain year, but the question is that do I live my visions? or I just write in and leave it away. I learn to start from the very closest and reasonable one, namely my graduation and I’m trying to focus and give my best to make it happen, then my certification, then my career…….. My four first visions are all about job, career, and study and I try that to get a success, I need to work hard and focus to what I do. Although in some times, I feel really give up on them. Also, be a depend-on-God person. just as Romans 3;23 everything i do, I must do it with all of my heart just as for God. Just believe that God never leaves me alone.

and my last visions is that about family. All I know is that when I try to focus on my relationship, God also cares more that I thought before. I used to be categorized to be such unserious person, which means that I always play around with what people called relationship. One day, someone told me, for how long will you just play around about this? and………what the hell who you are hahahahahaha….but, since then, it all change my paradigms about this kind of ‘relationship’ ^_^

I really thanks God for this merciful year and I believe that in the next years, there will be more and more enjoyable experiences…and now 2009, honestly, I still have no visions to do…hahahahahahaha so, untill the last day of this year, I think I am going to think hard for my visions in 2009 ^_^ hehehehe that’s why I put a title “After 2008…..what’s next??”

and for my soulmate, Ko Heru, i really thank God for you and hope that in the next years we can have a very enjoyable, fun, happy, sad, stressful, nice, adventurous, etc etc experiences together..you and me and God and people around us…yang ptg seru dah heheheh ^_^ rite?

my complains ^_^

Here are my complains to IT user and client that makes my working days seems to be so blue

1. change everything they have made before

2. add new feature after the design is approved

3. hard to find if we need them

4. blame and say that we are stupid while they themselves who makes errors =(

5. they always say that they are in a hurry, while if we ask them to test the application, we have no idea of where are they? =P

6. they like to argue with their friends and make the mistakes are all on us..capppeee deh

any adds? =P

the heart and the wind

I’m so inspired by what bible says today. It is taken from Matthew 14:22-33 which tells us when Peter and other disciples saw Jesus walking on the water and they are so surprise and amazed. As they saw that miracle, they all say that…it’s a ghost (hehe..what a man!)

Suddenly Peter asked if He was trully Jesus, He will let Peter walk on the water to Him, and after Jesus said yes, Peter could walk on the water but….when as the wind blew out, Peter was doubt and it make him fell down in the water.

My thought in this story lies in 2 things:

1. Faith

Faith to whom? of course, it is faith to Jesus. He is there and it should be nothing to fear of. It was such a great faith that Peter had. He didn’t only believe to what Jesus said, but he did the action. What will I do if I know that God wants me to do something? sometimes I deny, sometimes I try to run ( Yeaah…that’s the signs of the unbeliever, rite? hahahahaha……….^_^ ) I evaluate and I get the result that I am too afraid to take a big faithfully step and this is going to be such a hugeeee resistance for me to get what God has provided me. I learn as Peter did, Jesus is here, in my life, and I must be brave because He’s the leader of my way. I believe if one day, I may take the wrong steps, He’ll put me back in His righteous, in one condition, as long as I have a teachable heart ^_^

2. Wind

Why did Peter fall? that’s because of the wind. The wind rose up the doubtness in Peter and he let it destroy his faith. I think, we can be both, blown up by the wind, or we are thw wind (for other people). Wind talks about resistance, something that can destroy my faith to God. Sometimes, I just let the wind blow up all my faith and the effect is that I will have a blank life, life without any hope. Just don’t let it happen ^_^ Bible describes ‘the wind’ as resistance, gossips (what other people says), doubt, hardships, etc etc.. it seems so hard, but Jesus has overcome it all.

The second perception is that sometimes, we become the wind for other people. This is what I notice so much. What I said, what I do, or even what I think, it can be such a huge resistance for other people. We are living in a community and it is allabout many people’s life Just don’t let us to be a resistance for other people….rite?

Happy nice friday ^_^

have you read this?

waiting for Luci to finish her job, while nothing to do in my client’s office then i’m back to my office =)

writing some useless stuff just to fulfill my blog but when I browse to my cousin’s blog, I find a nice article

here it is

IT Ethics ( by Melisa Harianto)

Baru-baru ini istilah etika IT begitu jelas terlintas dalam pikiran saya, karena apa yang saya alami di tempat kerja baru ini menyebabkan saya teringat kembali akan istilah tersebut.

Pertama kali saya mengenal etika IT adalah ketika saya kuliah di jurusan IT. Dosen memberi petuah-petuah akan etika-etika yang harus dimiliki seorang profesional IT. Karena bekerja di bidang IT, terutama software adalah orang-orang yang bekerja dengan barang-barang seperti seperti data, system, coding, network dan sebagainya, sesuatu yang orang katakan tidak tampak.

Jika ada orang yang mempunyai skill IT yang baik dan kemudian dengan skill-nya dia melakukan transfer uang dari bank account yang bukan miliknya, maka orang ini sudah dikatakan melanggar etika keprofesionalan IT.

Atau jika ada orang yang melakukan penyerangan terhadap sistem komputer tertentu dengan ‘memasukkan’ virus. Ini sudah melanggar etika pula. Skill yang dimiliki haruslah digunakan untuk sesuatu yang membangun, dan bukan menghancurkan. Apa pun yang kita hadapi, janganlah sampai merusakkan keprofesional bidang dan etika.

Di tempat kerja baru ini, ada seseorang yang membangun suatu sistem. Tapi dikarenakan lingkungan kerja tidak men-support dia, maka dia mulai melakukan suatu ‘kerusakan’. Contoh paling mudah adalah meninggalkan pekerjaannya tanpa dokumentasi apapun, makin parah jika dia sengaja mengacaukan sistem sebelum kepergiannya.

Bagi orang-orang yang ditinggalkan termasuk para user, mereka akan sangat dirugikan. Pertama karena tidak adanya dokumentasi, knowledge sharing, sehingga tidak ada satu pun yang mengerti bagaimana sistem bekerja. Dan jika ada masalah pada lapangan, tidak ada seorang pun yang bisa memperbaikinya.

Saya pribadi sangat mengerti akan situasi ini, karena umur, pengalaman, dan sifat kepribadian saya.
Sewaktu umur saya masih muda, jika dihadapkan pada situasi yang kurang menyenangkan, kadang ada keinginan untuk memberi ‘pelajaran’. Tapi saya juga memandang pada user yang saya tahu persis, mereka sangat membutuhkan bantuan sistem untuk membantu pekerjaan mereka.

Maka, bagi teman-teman yang membaca artikel ini, mari kita sama-sama membangun level keprofesionalan yang tinggi dan baik, yang akhirnya akan selalu memberi sifat membangun.

“A Love That Will Last”

this is such a nice and sweet song…… =P I really like to listen to it, especially to accompany me in the night  over time working…… hahah

“A Love That Will Last”

I want a little something more
Don’t want the middle or the one before
I don’t desire a complicated past
I want a love that will last

say that you love me
Say I’m the one
Don’t kiss and hug me and then try to run
I don’t do drama
My tears don’t fall fast
I want a love that will last

[Chorus"]
I don’t want a just a memory
give me forever
Don’t even think about saying good-bye
‘Cause I want just one love to be enough
And remain in my heart till I die

So call me romantic
Oh I guess that’s so
There’s something more that you oughta know
I’ll never leave you
So don’t even ask
I want a love that will last

Forever
I want a love that will last
I want a love that will last

[Chorus]

So there’s just a little more that I need
I wanna share all the air that you breathe
I’m not the kinda girl to complicate the past
I want a love that will last

Forever
I want a love the love that last
Always
I just want a love that will last
Want a love that will last

apologize

Love this song because of its nice beat…..2 days to find this MP3 haha and finally get it =)

I’m holding on your rope,
Got me ten feet off the ground,
And I’m hearing what you say,
But I just can’t make a sound,
You tell me that you need me,
Then you go and cut me down, away,
You tell me that you’re sorry,
Didn’t think I’d turn around, and say

[Chorus]
That it’s too late to apologize,
It’s too late,
I said it’s too late to apologize,
It’s too late,
(Too late)
Ooooooohhh

I take another chance,
take a fall, take a shot for you,
i need you like a heart needs a beat,
But it’s nothing new, yeahhh yeahhh
I loved you with the fire red,
Now it’s turning blue, and you said
Sorry like the angel,
Heaven let me think was you,
But I’m afraid

[Chorus]

[Guitar Solo]

It’s too late to apologize,
It’s too late,
I said it’s too late to apologize,
It’s too late
I said it’s too late to apologize,
(Too late)
I said it’s too late to apologize,
(Too late)

I’m holding on your rope,
Got me ten feet off the ground

Apologize by One Republic